Confessions...

i concure, max is a brilliant name
however im like crouch; Mer is just the mane i think of you by.


my confession;
I dont understand 'romantic' love. (there is a label for it but i dislike lables so...)
Like, its not love in itself; I love and adore my freinds, family, you lot
But when i look at couples and stuff, i just dont understand it. how is it possible. 
ehh i cant explain

it's just a deeper sense of connection between at least two people that then carries on to be at least slightly more physical than friends or family. That's it. That's all it is.

From my (admittedly young) understanding, love is quite simply finding someone so compatible with you that you can't help but feel drawn to them. You spend your every moment thinking about them. They become an extension of yourself in a way. When they hurt, so do you. When they're happy so are you. 

IDK that's what I feel anyways

From my experience I think romantic attraction is like what Death said - you just get really close to someone and before you know it, you find them really interesting and you want to get even closer.

And with what crouch says, you get to this point where you get sad if they are because you've started to care about them and want the best for them.

Admittedly I am not physically attracted to most people, I find their personalities fascinating and that's how I grow to love them I guess.

yeah i get the theory of it i just...dont understan it.
im strange i know

Nah. It's hard to understand. Even I don't get it sometimes even though I am very much in love with my significant other.

It's kind of like anti-logic if that makes sense. It's nothing a textbook can teach, but you know it to be fact

I will never confess this anywhere but here, just so i'm certain none of my IRL friends will see this >.>

Even though i find relationships and intimacy hard (bad experiences, anxiety, the usual suspects) i've had a crush on one of my best friends for a long time. I feel awful because i know she sees me as her best friend and i doubt it'll go further than that. i dont mind at all, i just wanted to confess this so i can move on!

 * she gives me back rubs and makes a blanket fort with me if im feeling especially down/anxious. (this goes both ways)

 * we sit on skype almost every night just watching a shitty movie on netflix or doing college work. Even if we're not talking we'll be in a call til one of us basically falls asleep.

* she gives the warmest fucking hugs i have ever received. 

* she doesnt care that i have a really shitty sense of humour

* she's so supportive and accepting of everything that i can just be completely honest around her, and vice versa. It's really refreshing and just... nice!

okay i will never speak of this again

I've had an itch to cosplay some of my OCs recently. More specifically, Teddy and Death. I just really want to do it.

i feel you

i want to cosplay Donia or Amaya desperately. I'd scare people as either of them.

But that'd be so awesome!

I could probably cosplay as Crouch or Crest

I'm totally going to cosplay them. It's solved. I'm doing it.

I LIKE K-POP!

Just a few of my favorites:









JOIN ME!

i fell asleep doing my coursework and my nirvana playlist has been repeated 146 times since.

there must be some part of my brain that now knows every lyric to all the songs on that list.

I MUST UNEARTH IT


please help me

I have given up on understanding the lyrics to Nirvana's songs unless I equip the help of Googling the lyrics.

Good luck, my friend.

i tried to recite the lyrics to myself - to any of their songs

nope.
not at all.

i know nothing jahn snuu 

So this isn't really a confession but I figured I'd put it here anyway because... -insert logical reason here-

So I'll be helping out my work at the LGBT Pridefest! And I do it proudly because I strongly support the lesbian, gay, bisexual and transgender community! Why people have made such a big deal out of a person's natural orientation is beyond baffling to me but whatever! I'll do whatever I can to show my support! 

Just figured I'd let you guys know on here since many of you fit into the LGBT community! I know my contribution to this is small but I'd happy to help in anyway I can!

:3 What's not to like about us?

PHOENIX 
OH MY GOD HI

I hope your parents come round to it...


And come back! even if its just to talk

river <3

i hope they come around too, dad has been trying to be respectful at (few) points whereas mum has blatantly ignored everything, so we'll see

honestly hanging around to talk at least is hopefully the plan

I think its kinda a parent thing.

I mean like, I havent explained it in so many words to my family, but I'm asexual- and don't date. Like, at all.
I've told my parents that I'm happier single and everything, but my mother keeps going 'so wheres this secret boyfrien we all know you have one.' or 'you know if you have a girlfriends we really really wont mind' And I'm like... why can I not just be single? Is there something that wrong with it?

(I am not explaining all the ace stuff to them that would just be annoying)

I guess its kinda awkward for them; this stuff was so tabboo for them growing up they dont know how to handle it....

yeah, i know what you mean.

my parents were absolutely fine with me being bi, so i guess it was just kind of a shock for them to be less okay about me being transgender. it feels a lot more like they treasure the idea of having a daughter than their child's actual happiness sometimes.

my parents stopped trying to ask me about secret partners ages ago though and i had a relationship for like 9 months without them knowing, so that was an experience.

Phoenix!!  It's so good to see you!  

I hope your parents come around too! Seriously, I can understand parents being shocked about finding out this kind of stuff, but they should accept it no matter what!