Mer's 'leaving' letter and stuff

(HAVE FUN READING THIS BEAST OF A LETTER. MUAHAHAHA)
I suppose this is my 'official' leaving letter.

my name's Mer, and i'm an RP addict
*people mumble 'Hi Mer'*

So I've found recently that RP has shifted from something i enjoy and do for fun to something i feel i have to do. It exhausts me to no end, to try and use my brain when i'm too tired to think, to conjure emotions that i have no motivation to feel at a certain time.
To be frank, it's stressful.

Most people know i dont have the ideal home life, anxiety etc. Sometimes it's crippling and RP adds momentous pressure of trying to cope. basically, RP becomes a chore.

Also, I've been recently diagnosed with stress-induced hair loss amongst other health conditions. RP hasn't aided these things in any way. I haven't been sleeping, eating properly and it's makes me feel like shit. I've done all this just so i could fit in 'one more reply; My life revolves around RP and it's worn me out both mentally and physically.

Lack of sleep hasn't helped my schoolwork either. I'm an A-student, but some of my recent grades have been falling in the C-F range. Due to this, i have 7 more resit exams/assessments to take in May/June - on top of the 22 i have already... can you imagine how freaked out i am?

Therefore, i feel the best thing for me to do is to pull out of most of RP. I'm not disappearing completely, I'm going to RP if/when i feel in the mood for it, and not force myself to RP for the sake of storylines. I'll still be online to talk to (Because i love you guys OOC), i just won't be doing much stuff IC anymore.

So I lied, i'm not really leaving properly XD But this need to be written anyhow.

If you desperately need my characters for something, which i assume over time will become less common, then i'm just a PM anyway and i'll happily do it. Don't feel bad for asking - I'll be RPing on request now. If you don't ask, you won't get anything

**MUSHY SECTION**
I'd like to add that i absolutely love you guys, and i could never thank you enough for all the help, support and advice you willingly offered me. Without you i would still be the pessimistic, awkward, fearful and paranoid girl i was when i first signed up here. These days i'm not so afraid to talk to people, have a laugh with them and be friendly. My social anxiety is practically non-existent now

Cheers for telling me that being totally weird and eccentric is perfectly acceptable, and for teaching me to be less oversensitive. You've helped me accept myself (ew, cliche), so fucking thank you for persevering with me. You got through to me in the end! c:

I CAN BE AMAZING...sometimes.

I FUCKING LOVE YOU GUYS
5EVUR

Seriously, i owe you guys my life. You bring out the best in me OuO

well, if you got this far, then -hands cookies- congratulations.

https://www.facebook.com/Minae97?ref=tn_tnmn
Most of y'all are my friends on Fb anyway so feel free to chat, comment and be weird all over my wall. Drop me a PM (here or FB) whenever you want okay? because i'm going to listen, i want to!

To any of you despairing: it gets better.I struggled to believe it did, but no matter how depressed/anxious/paranoid you might be now, there will be an end eventually. I can 100% guarantee that. Storm's can't last forever.

I'm gonna end it here. THANK YOU a thousand times over for everything, you will always be my best friends (even if you don't want such a crazy poophead as a friend, tough. ).

-swaggers out with immense style and flair-

Where the fuck is my cookie?

Merrrr

1) I've heard of your 'epic speeches', so WHY ISNT THIS LONGER WOMAN.
GOD DAMMIT
i made a cup of tea and everything!

2) As long as i can spam you on Fb or in PM Idm what you do dudette

3) gurl, u r so fab and sw4ggerific

4) i want a cookie too. hmm.

Louis:
#S0 MUCH SW4GG

i'm sorry, i actually cut half of it out on preview, i was scared nobody would read it :c

and of course i'll be about, my characters will just be on the shelf... forever

Kurdt and Louis:
Your cookie is in narnia. Find it yourself

Whelp, time to get a wardrobe.

oh wow, this must've taken you like an hour to write
-here, have a guy glomp for the effort-

*dusts off Mer's characters* my precioussss....

-pokes head in cupboard-
ASLAN, ASLAN WHERE'S MA COOKIES

*laughs manically*
idek

-hugs both of my bros-
idc if you dont like hugs kurdt.

Get the fuck away from me with those gestures of affection!

*accepts hug on behalf of Kurdt and flips him the finger*
bitch you're probably never going to RP with her again
stfu

*sucks in air through teeth, makes that awkward whistling noise*
weeellllll

it's possible, but i'm not avoiding RP completely, just when i want to RP i'll do it.
c:

calm your tits.

Hand over my cookie. -holds hand out-

You know I ain't gonna stop talking to you chica. I'll probably pester you all the time

id quite like that

*Tackle hugs Mer* Wifeyyyyy <3

I'll probably be around on FB or here if you ever want to chat :3 I'll probably do the same as Death and bug you anyways I'll miss you too much otherwise.